Lights up on frantic student, writing on paper, typing, looking things up in books, seemingly stressed.
The student goes to take a sip of water and the glass spills. The monologue continues with the student cleaning up as speaking the first couple of lines.
You know, sometimes I just need a break, you know? A chance to breathe and let my mind wander. I feel like I’m caught in this never-ending cycle where my attention is constantly pulled. And honestly, it's exhausting.
I mean, sure, I understand the importance of learning and expanding my knowledge. But can't there be more to it than endless assignments and deadlines? I yearn for a moment of respite, a chance to escape the confines of textbooks and equations.
Homework feels like this constant heavy weight on my shoulders, constantly reminding me of all the things I have to do and have not done. It's like I'm drowning in a sea of responsibilities, gasping for a breath of freedom, before I even have any real responsibilities. Sometimes, I just want to throw it all away and forget about it.
But then comes the guilt. That nagging voice in the back of my mind telling me that I should be responsible, that this will all pay off in the end, and that I should be diligent and keep pushing forward. But why does it always have to be about pushing forward? Can't I take a step back and reflect on the things that truly matter?
I yearn for the time when learning wasn't just about grades and checkboxes and marks, when it was an adventure, a journey of self-discovery. I miss the days when knowledge was my companion, not a burden. When I could explore ideas and question everything without worrying about the consequences.
So today, I stand here, overlooking this water soaked desk, torn between the expectations placed upon me and my inner longing for something different. I want to reclaim my time, to find joy in the simple pleasures of life. I want to remind myself that I am more than just a student constantly drowning in a sea of assignments.
I am more than my assignments.
Because, ultimately, what's the purpose of education if it only leads to exhaustion and burnout? Shouldn't it be a tool for empowerment, for nurturing our passions and cultivating curiosity?
So, tonight, I'm going to take a break from the homework. I'm going to indulge in the things that make me feel alive, that ignite my imagination. I'll recharge my spirit and come back stronger, ready to face the challenges that lie ahead. I’m going to make a calendar to see if there is a better way of getting this done without drowning.
Because, in the end, my self-worth is not defined by a pile of unfinished assignments. It's defined by my dreams, my desires, and the person I am becoming. And that's something no amount of homework can ever measure.